Wednesday, 27 November 2019

Of More Sad Goodbyes And Floating Free

I may have mentioned that I run a monthly acoustic evening for writers to perform their own poems and songs. I know I am reaching that age but, rather disturbingly, the last two of these included performances by two of our regular songwriters who, within hours of giving fine performances passed away. I've been to both funerals in the past few weeks and it is enough to bring me up a little short. I know we all have to face the reality of our own mortality, but I feel honoured to have witnessed two such fine performances. Both funeral services took place in nearby crematoria and it was comforting to be able to spend time with mutual friends at both. I have pretty much always felt that funerals should be for those who are left behind. It makes sense that we should be able to honour the departed in the way that seems most appropriate.

Barry, whose funeral was last weekend, wrote his songs as poems and sang them. He didn't read or write music, he didn't record his melodies, but somehow he just remembered them. I have to write my songs down, including the music, or I forget them, so I appreciate his dedication to being able to remember his own songs. Many of his songs were historical documents about his life as an engineer with a particular passion for boats, trains and other engines. As I type this I have the part of the tune to his song, "Legging" going through my head. It was about the "leggers" who, working in pairs, used to lie on their backs on a board across a narrowboat with their feet pressed against the tunnel walls in order to propel it through a tunnel in the days before steam or internal combustion engines. This was an arduous and risky occupation with several fatalities.

After our sessions Barry and I often talked about boats. He is the only person ever to have observed and remarked correctly concerning my affectation for wearing odd socks. He correctly noticed I always had a port and a starboard sock, i.e. I generally wear a sock with red in it on my left foot and something on the blue/green end of the spectrum on my right. I'll miss Barry, as I'll miss Mike with his "French Polisher's Blues". Cabriole legs will never be the same again. We are approaching the final Friday of the month when we hold our Songwriters & Poets night. I do not wish to go to any more funerals just yet.

The wake following Barry’s funeral was to be held in a hotel a few miles away that stands just across the road from the river. Of course it seemed quite appropriate for me to go by boat. I left a few hours hours to give me enough time to turn the boat round in a wide bit of river about fifteen minutes away and set off back passing where I started towards the hotel. The lock was against me and the lock-keeper unavailable - just me then. Closing the open penstocks (that’s what we call paddles in the Fens) left open by the last user, emptying the lock, manoeuvring the boat, closing the lock gates, filling the lock again, mooring the boat at the nearby staithe while I went back to close the gates again took the best part of forty-five minutes. I arrived at the hotel with enough time to order a lunch and eat it. The boat had behaved impeccably all the way. This must be what other boaters feel like when they go out on their boats. I made four videos during the journey. Here's the first of them.





Thursday, 7 November 2019

Of A Placeholder Update and Downloadable Music

I do apologise AGAIN for not adding anything to this blog for such a long time. I began with such good intentions too.

I have been out and about in the boat and I have been performing to promote the album a little and have been very pleased that it has received plays on BBC Radio Cambridgeshire, West Norfolk Radio and Future Radio. I have also been busy with other projects, mainly ceilidh bands, and drum workshops, but other musical projects too. I have even played drums in a rock band for the first time ever and had a lot of fun doing that. I was offered a busking spot at a small festival recently which was also a lot more fun than I anticipated. I didn't earn much and didn't sell any cds, but I did earn enough in about an hour and a half to feed myself that day - result! I have also finished a couple of new songs for the first time in months and I am happy with those. I've even trialled them at the monthly Songwriters nights I run. Did I mention the extraordinary Lâg/HyVibe guitar I've had for the past six months? I must do a bit about that in a future blog essay.

This week I have been drawing together some thoughts on the Byelaws that are being proposed for this waterway. This follows the introduction of new laws last year, which conferred the necessary powers on the navigation authority here to make these Byelaws. Not really good news, unfortunately, but hopefully some of my objections will strike a chord. It is amazing how many powerful people are not really aware of their actions on others; or is that just people in general?

I've experienced losing a couple of musician friends suddenly and unexpectedly in the last few weeks.  I suppose I'm at that age when this will increasingly become a feature of my life. I've been asked to read one his poems by the widow of the latest to go.

Much less drastically, but also unexpected and unfortunate, I have had some gigs cancelled that I thought were settled. As one door closes, another one slams shut! It wouldn't affect me so much if I had a proper job (or any job I suppose) maybe? Perhaps more busking ...

I just thought I would mention though, that FINALLY I have got round to sorting out putting some music on Bandcamp. That means people who want to buy a download instead of the physical cd can do so. Naturally the download is cheaper, although it is nice for us musicians that customers, followers and fans can add a little extra if they would like to. This is the place ...


I understand some people prefer not to use PayPal. If you buy from Bandcamp I believe it doesn't have to go through PayPal unless you want it to.

At some point I have to address the daunting prospect of redesigning my websites I have to reflect what I actually spend my time doing these days. It's another one of those jobs I've put off for years. Work begins on costumes and masks for February's 2020 Venice Carnival very soon.




Monday, 20 May 2019

11. Say I'm Sexy - Track eleven from "Head Above Water" by Marshlander

Say I'm Sexy

How can you say I’m sexy when I’m sixty-three years old?
At our age most prefer to think that passion long ago grew cold,
But you throw petrol on my fire and, if the truth be told,
We’re burning bright, let’s burn all night!
Even though we’re old 
We’re burning bright, let’s burn all night!
Even though we’re older
My sight is too far gone to see that you’re no longer young.
Liver spots and wrinkles never seem to stop us having fun.
The meals we make taste just as good and when the eating’s done
We’ll sit at the table laugh and talk.
Who needs to be young 
We’ll sit at the table laugh and talk.
Who needs to be younger

Deep within your gaze, I see that glint that’s just for me.
Each gentle touch excites me more than anyone has a right to be!
All these years I’ve loved you and your love has made me free.
Let’s stay together ever more; you, my love, and me!
Let’s stay together ever more; you, my love, and me!

Sex is wasted on the young.  They think they know the score.
Your kisses and caresses make me want to love you more and more
And more and more and more and more and more and more and more and more.
But it matters not (well, not a lot) when sex becomes a chore.

It matters not (no, not a lot) when sex becomes a chortle! 

(Music and lyrics by Marshlander - all rights reserved)


He says it and he means it. I love him. "Say I'm Sexy" celebrates the good fortune of finding love in later life.  I was fifty-five when I wrote it and I change the age every birthday. The song is out of date again.

10. In Your Place - Track ten from "Head Above Water" by Marshlander

In Your Place

There are no ghosts, but as I sit here
Memories are shimmering on the edge of recall.
The shadow of a thought of a recollection.
Nothing more will focus but I feel I want to scribble
Half a word, half a sketch while I’m sitting in this unaccustomed quiet
In your place.

Silence gives way, splintered by memory
The howl of your laughter uncoils in an echo of a thought.
I thought you were brave.
Or was it just persistence?
You must have been strong so I feel I want to share half a smile and a tear
While I’m sitting in this unaccustomed quiet
In your place.

We never quite said what was important.
Instead we sent e-mails and kept each other amused.
You tried to recruit another campaigner,
But I turned you down so I feel I want to share half a word, half a line
While I’m sitting in this unaccustomed quiet
In your place.

Those things never shared 
You knew that I meant them.
You should have rejected me, but you took me in as one of your own.
You thanked me many times for making him happy.
I think we should have hugged.
You should have had a new hat.
In your place of private grief and hilarious meals I shed a tear, 
In your place.

It’s strange how in death I sing out to reach you.
We put you in the ground and that’s where you’ll always be.
Sometimes you feel near; those memories shimmer.
We could not have been more different, but I feel I want to sing half a line, half a song while I’m sitting in this unaccustomed quiet

In your place.

(Music and lyrics by Marshlander - all rights reserved)


Another death in the family. I'm at that age where the frequency of deaths around me is accelerating. These thoughts are about sitting in the house of a loved one who has recently died and trying to pull together some coherent memories.

9. Damn You, Enchiladas - Track nine from "Head Above Water" by Marshlander

Damn You, Enchiladas

Many songs are sung of life and loves both won and lost
Celebration of the living seems to come at such a cost.
But when Mama told your story it was hard to stem the tears
At the bravery and the wisdom of a man so few in years.

Damn you! Damn you, enchiladas!
You may have won this time, but I shall beat you next time round.
Chemotherapy has made a shadow out of me,
But I shall beat you.
Damn you, enchiladas!

Where do ideas come from when we haven’t read great minds
Sharing words of comfort when it wasn’t yet your time.
You shared the love of ancestors who reached you through thin air.
The wonder of their being was that only you saw them there.

Damn you! Damn you, enchiladas!
You may have won this time, but I shall beat you next time round.
Chemotherapy has made a shadow out of me,
But I shall beat you.
Damn you, enchiladas!

Sickness stole your childhood and the treatment stole your youth.
But George took on the dragon after digging up some truth
And planted in that hole some seeds of hope that grew so tall.
Against the odds the oil of life was burning after all.

Damn you! Damn you, enchiladas!
You may have won this time, but I shall beat you next time round.
Chemotherapy has made a shadow out of me,
But I shall beat you.
Damn you, enchiladas!

Papa saw you smiling and your foot began to tap
At the songs of this cock crowing with his sounds that overlap.
This was something massive when such sounds could leave you cold.

From three days left to audience was something to behold!

Damn you! Damn you, enchiladas!
You may have won this time, but I shall beat you next time round.
Chemotherapy has made a shadow out of me,
But I shall beat you.
Damn you, enchiladas!

(Music and lyrics by Marshlander - all rights reserved)

I met the father of the family in this story one night at a gig and, following his recommendation, read the intensely moving book, “The Boy In Seven Billion”, by Callie Blackwell and Karen Hockney. This is my version of the story of a boy who, while getting to grips with a world experienced through an autistic filter, developed leukaemia and later a second cancer. He was not expected to reach his eleventh birthday, let alone his fourteenth when he ran from the hospice four weeks after being given three days to live. I sang this song in public for the first time with the whole family unexpectedly present on his eighteenth birthday. Being able to be together may have been a most amazing gift for the family, but trying out the song was an unexpected gift for me, specially since I hadn't planned to sing the song that night. The greatest compliment was paid by Callie who observed that I really had read the book very closely. It was one of those I simply could not put down.

The reference to the enchiladas comes into the story when Deryn is released from hospital to celebrate his eleventh birthday with his family at a favourite Mexican restaurant where he was determined to finish the whole meal. 

"Damn you, enchiladas," Deryn muttered as he glared at the few leftovers on his plate. "I'll get you next time." (from "The Boy In Seven Billion" by Callie Blackwell and Karen Hockney)

Given a lead-in like that, the song demanded to be written. Naturally there had to be a Latin feel to the music.

8. Lean On The Tiller - Track eight from "Head Above Water" by Marshlander

Lean On The Tiller

Kingfisher sitting on the prow of the boat
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day.
Kingfisher sitting on the prow of the boat
He’ll keep a-fishing, I’ll keep afloat.
Lean, lean, lean on the tiller all the livelong day.

Ten fine swans with plumage fine
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day.
Ten fine swans with plumage fine
Swim on the river in a dead straight line.
Lean, lean, lean on the tiller all the livelong day.

I’ll lean on the tiller like you lean on a gate
From the crack of dawn till the evening late
Watch my wash as I wend my way
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day

Fish close in for scraps from my platter
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day.
Fish close in for scraps from my platter
Here comes Mr Pike watch them scatter.
Lean, lean, lean on the tiller all the livelong day.

Cormorants sitting on a telephone line
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day.
Cormorants sitting on a telephone line
Eyeing those fish all looking so fine
Lean, lean, lean on the tiller all the livelong day.

I’ll lean on the tiller like you lean on a gate
From the crack of dawn till the evening late
Watch my wash as I wend my way
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day

The sadness in this cabaret
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day
The sadness in this cabaret
See the mink that swims this way.
Lean, lean, lean on the tiller all the livelong day.

I’ll lean on the tiller like you lean on a gate
From the crack of dawn till the evening late
Watch my wash as I wend my way
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day

There’s more to tell about life on the river
Lean on the tiller all the livelong day.
There’s more to tell about life on the river
But if I told you all you’d shiver and quiver.

Lean, lean, lean on the tiller all the livelong day.

(Music and lyrics by Marshlander - all rights reserved)

Like most of the songs in this collection this is mostly from first-hand observation. Some people think this song is just about the natural world. It is partly that, but I also wanted to work through some thoughts on being in the right or wrong place and time. I am often in the wrong country at any given time, but thankfully I do have some choice in that. Seeing families being rounded up by the authorities after being forced out of the back of a lorry at Toddington Services on the M.1. was a less happy experience. I have written about that already in this blog. This is one of several watery songs on the album.

The musical challenge for "Lean On The Tiller" was to come up with a song where the lyrics told a story, conformed to a shape and the music had the feel of an American folk song - don't ask me why, because I don't really know why, except I have had a lot of pleasure over the years singing traditional songs from many times and places including a lot from American tradition. Could it have been a response to meeting Peggy Seeger, who greeted me by describing me as a "colourful pirate"?!


"Cormorants sitting on a telephone line ...?" Definitely cormorants, but they may be sitting on a power line!

7. Be Home Soon - Track seven from "Head Above Water" by Marshlander

Be Home Soon

Fifty feet of steel,   Travel where you will
Plough a furrow through the Fen, 
Go wherever you feel
That's home.  No place like home.
Sleep in your own bed.  Don't leave your room.
Every night a new place.
Be home soon.

Feel that engine roar.  Watch the river part.
Glide your way to somewhere new, hope in your heart.
That's home.  No place like home.
Stoke the fire.  Cosy nest.
Don't leave your room.
Every night a new place.
Be home soon.

New pace of life - four miles an hour 
The weather shows no mercy save for wind and sun and shower
That's home.  No place like home.
Closer than you've ever been
Don't leave your room.
Every night a new place.
Be home soon.

Perch and roach and bream, your aquarium
The raw and arching sky, your solarium.
That's home.  No place like home.
Hang the rest, do your thing
Don't leave your room.
Every night a new place.

Be home soon.


(Music and lyrics by Marshlander - all rights reserved)

At an open mic evening some years ago I heard four or five young performers each singing one of the four songs they had knocked up that afternoon. I felt completely de-skilled. It takes me months and sometimes years to shape a song to the point where it becomes something I am willing to sing. Some years ago I set myself a task that, on my next clear day, I would start and complete a song in a day. I sat at the table with no idea about what I was going to write, so I wrote about what I could see around me. I can't say the song has remained untouched since then, but with the deletion or addition of a word or two and the addition of the simple harp part this is essentially what I came up with on that day. I like to think that  the sound of the song conveys the momentum and engine sound of cruising on the inland waterways at three or four miles an hour. I have often felt that living on a boat is like all the best bits of camping, only even better, because I can spend every night in a different place while I can still be in my home surroundings.